Ramadhan; the month to learn more..

assalamualaikum..

sekarang ni bulan puasa, biasenye klu bulan puasa ni semue org nk buat baik kan..cm bajet je! tp aku try jugak la nak cari apa sebenanye yg special kt bulan puasa dlm hidup aku.. seingat aku la, seumur hidup aku, aku tak penah lagi dapat apa2 yg aku rase mcm
 "OMG, ramadhan had changed me into something i'm really grateful".
belum pernah lagi la...klu aku fikir2 balik, knp? sbb aku slalu buat bulan puase to mcm bulan2 yg lain, padahal Allah dah bagtw it is the special month. but I always end up making it as a typical islamic celebration. sbb tu, spanjang hidup aku, bulan puase tu cume puase semate2!

aku ni pemalas orangnye. mengaji pon-just bace je, klu rajin tu aku bce la maksudnye..(slalunye dok pon!)
lepastu, klu terawih tu menguap je lebih! bile imam bace panjg sikit, nk bg x mngntuk, aku pon melayang-kan otaknye ntah kemana...
sedekah, emm...klu nk beli tissu tu.. (sedekah tu rahsia :P)

sejak 2 menjak ni, perang kt GAZA tu jadi HOT issue balik kt SNS. yelah, as a muslimah I do concern about things yg melibatkan masa depan dunia ni. well, you see kite semua tau yg perang kat arab tu, klu berakhir, x lama lagi kiamat lah dunia ni! jagajaga cik tipah* so aku pon  cm nk mengkaji bukti dari ayat suci Al-Quran lah gitu. tapi dok jumpe pule~yg byk just hadith. or maybe hadith sebenarnye yg tunjukkan bukti2 tu. harap2 ade lah org nak share ayat tu kt aku..hoho. (don't laugh over a serious stuff!)

kite share2 la..(bukan sbb nk buat baik gitu, aku rasa penting utk kite always sedar yg dunia ni dah tak lama* aku pon debadeba jugak ni...hush!!)



Sahih International
[Remember] when your Lord inspired to the angels, "I am with you, so strengthen those who have believed. I will cast terror into the hearts of those who disbelieved, so strike [them] upon the necks and strike from them every fingertip." (surah Al-Anfal: ayat 12)

ayat ni mmg buat aku rase cm..everytime kita rasa lost, why God doesn't  fulfill my wishes. I can't see the answer..*manusia mcm aku ni slalu gopoh! x sabar. buta hati tak nampak-nampak semua nikmat yg tuhan bagi setiap saat dlm hidup aku. tunggu hilang baru nak sedar. 

apalah nk dibandingkan dugaan aku dgn dugaan saudara2 islam palestin tu. betapa kuatnye hati diorg. dulu aku slalu fikir, yg hidup pasti mati. tak kira cara mati mcm mana sekali pon, the result is still you are die! you will leave the world. so, mungkin daripada aku mati sakit, mati accident, ke mati ape2 care lah, lebih baik aku tujukan mati aku kat perang. dpt masuk syurga. yg penting aku mati!

skarg aku faham, mcm mana perasaan pejuang2 islam yg sanggup menggadaikan nyawa. they're not a coward! sbb tuhan dan para malaikat ada kat sisi mereka and mereka percaya 100% walaupun ianya invisible. rasa malu betimpe2 bile aku rasa takutnya mati perang..ngeri la konon.

well, baru2 ni aku dpt kerje n my boss is chinese. well-he likes to ask me about my mysterious religion I hold..misteri la bagi diorg. mesti la pelik, bakpe kne pakai tudung, tak boleh sentuh bukan muhrim (different gender), tak boleh pgg anjing and babi tu cam najis gile..sebut nama b tu pon semua rasa mcm cukup hina..haha..aku ni klu non muslim tanye mcm2 aku pon jadi lost lah..nak explain x pandai. sbb bende tu mcm dah sebati dlm pemikiran aku and I don't need a reason to be a muslimah gitteww kaw Jah! tapi mestila aku tau reason die, just karang klu aku sebut terus takut diorg ni tak boleh nk terime pulak kan, so kene la explain dari A++ supaye deporang tak pening dan tak tanye byk2 lagi kt aku.. tapi aku mmg tak gheti cmna nak ckp. akhirnye bos aku panggil aku ni "conservative minded" mmg aku buat muke troll je lah klu die kate gitu dpn aku. haihhh~

things that I want to tell to ALL NON MUSLIM ALL AROUND THE WORLD!:

• I believe all the rules written in holy quran . that's what lead me to believe in life after death
• I believe that life isn't that easy (you think you can escape from the bad deed by die! go to hell)
• I believe that life is temporary, coz I learn from the death of the person I loves. (you could die anytime, without warning. and don't think there will be someone who comes to you and tell you're going to die tomorrow, whatever you are, how good you're, no matter how much treasure you have, it will be left behind once you died!) 
• I believe my God isn't something the same as me: He is far beyond the human can ever think about Him. I just want to say " if you're God, why would you choose to create something with the same shape as you, same ability like you, looks same like you? normally the God shouldn't stand even a tini tiny little thing as the things that He will create. to show that He is the Almighty! He can do anything, not comparable, because He is GOD! SHOULD I REPEAT?. don't you dare to think that you're able to think the same thought as God! because you're actually nothing. especially someone who can't even acknowledge the creator. what do you think the God will say, I think He should say "you despicable human being".
• I believe for what orders my God left in Holy Quran. so that I will be a grateful creation. and I hope He will notice that I am the good creation, coz I obey all of his orders. same as a children who wants to get attention from their parents. do good so that you could get praise..but there's also a children who wants to get attention by rebelling. so, what will you get first from your mom? slap in the face I guess...
• I believe that my God Left me with two guardians for the rest of my life, they take note for all my good and bad deeds I am doing. so that all human being in this world will be judge fairly for their deeds during his/her lifetime. nobody can escape from the sins they did. NOBODY!

If you think that all angles is ordered to protect you, there won't be bad luck in your life you know! (why do you think you don't be a criminal like a thief? there's a thousand of criminals who got escape for their crimes. why you still wants to stay doing all your works, scolded by clients, rushing here and there, get tired. why? you have a choice to be rich either in good or bad ways. it's because you believe you'll get nothing for a bad deed. afraid  over a punishment, likes hanged until died. there's some of my friend said that he is not afraid of die. because he didn't believe life after died. so why bother by getting hang?  )

these are actually only some of my thought that I can share as an answer for non muslims who always want to know why we do this and do that..you know you have google, go find the answer yourself if you're that curious... but still you want a direct answer.. I don't understand this!  

I didn't say that I am a very obedient creation, but still I want to stand my personal thought over islamic belief! for full answer, please read Al-Quran. (even I still don't finish studying it yet, shame on me!!!) you won't get smack or hang if you read someone else holy book!

here is one of the webpage that will clarify about Islam. all you need is passion to read and serious!